BLUEAPPLE:Renovatio

Ah.... another month is gonna end tonight... it seems so fast...
life is passing by at lightning... am relishing the fact that i'm fastforwarding to adulthood...
hopefully that part of my life will be bright(who doesnt wish so?)....
Tomorrow is the 1st of june... ITS GAWAI (harvest festival)!!
this year wont 'balik kampung'(longhouse)...partly coz holidays too short...4 days only..what they expect we can do with 4 days???
wanted to skip class today and go home.. but this evening got chemistry test...*sigh*....home gotta wait i guess...will use the bus service coz me parents dont trust me enough to let me drive back home...am i a reckless driver? (mabe...)

thats all i guess....
HAPPY GAWAI to all my Iban frendz (wherever you r)...
also to all my other frendz....happy hols...give me a ring(i doubt you can coz in my hometown no DIGI line)... so will be disconnected from the world for a while...

*dev disconnecting (from civilized world) for now*... :]

p/s KISS and be KISSED .... lol ;p

Its been a while since i've posted anything...
life's kinda bored...typical teenager's life...
what is there to be excited of.... kinda wished that something out of the natural will happen...
dream on...
when i was still living in a small town (sri aman), i've always wished(at that time) that i could go live in a big town (bigger than sri aman) like Kuching...but now after just 1 month here in Kuching, i cant help but wished that i was back in the small peaceful town (a part of me)...the other part wants to migrate to a bigger town..
This all shows what a typical human will act like...we will never be satisfied with what we have....
its not that i'm not happy with myself..but i'm bored with the nothingness in my life...
how does it feel to be like Lara Croft in the tomb raider? like Ethan Hunt in Mi3? or like Harry Potter in Harry Potter? i suppose it only happens in stories/movies....
thats the point of making movies aint it?

i feel envious of people that get to do things that i cant do..... but when i remind myself of the things i can do, makes me appreciate my life...
APPRECIATIVENESS... thats the key to a happy life..
(do i sound like a philosopher????)

anyway my life has not always been dull... juz yesterday i went 'clubbing' for the first time....
kinda exciting... eventhough the place smells like smoke... enjoyed watching, or shall i say observing the stupidity of the human race...indulged in liquor and whores(in a sarcastis tone)...
anyway i'm of age now so i want to explore the unknown...(get what i mean?)
am looking forward to go clubbing again (in a better place)..hehe..^^

dev the philosopher plus sarcastic clubber signing out..

p/s if any of u know places of interest(clubs, hangouts, etc)..ring me...

The worst part in studying has finally caught up with dear old me...
after nearly six month of freedom, its now back to the 'good' old days...
hated exams since i knew the meaning of school..
the word 'EXAM' brings forth memories; both good and bad.
even a 'KIMIZU KEEPER' would shudder if i unfold my darkest secrets..(exam secrets of course)...

WHO THE HECK INVENTED EXAMS?
must be some scum who cant stand being too clever...sigh*
haih...HOW i hated exams...
eventhough i nearly excelled in most of my exams, i still cant help being unconfident...
exams suck!!!!!
everybody keep telling me that i can do it but i CANT!!!!
is this my self-conscience talking or stress?...(maybe i should take steroids; i mean the real, strong poerfull ones)

by the way, the first has just passed, eventhough there are still many to come i just cant keep myself from thinking that i will fail....
the thought keeps running through my mind...
i hope i dont fail, but still i'm thinking that i will...sigh*

but still gotta get on with life... plus exams...sigh*

p/s 1) Anybody got any STEROIDS u recommend me taking?
2) Can STRESS kill sumone?
3) Fear of exams, what izzit called?

dev signing off with a sigh*

2 days have gone by...almost unnoticeably...
cant believe that a lot has been going on in the past few days...
i feel so bored (eventhough a lot assignment), the streets look dull(eventhough election was going on), the neighbourhood looks gloomy(eventhough its one of the denst populated area)..
whats happening?
or is it ME?
i FEEL so useless...no words can describe my feelings...
mabe i'm in LOVE????
who knows...it is possible...
BULLSHIT...

useless thoughts are running through my mind...
making my mind much more useless...
(i'm writing rubbish AGAIN)
whats the point of a blog anyway....

been thinking bout what creamedcookie scribbled in her blog(seldom meeting with our friends,family and loved ones) erm, i add a bit la.......
whats the point of loving someone if we cant share our precious moments with them???...
whats the point of feeling love for someone but dont have the guts to tell them u love them...
stupid isnt it...
but like Da Vinci said, 'Behind every thought is a hidden agenda'...
one day i might just reflect on my thoughts and say 'why last time so dumb'...
hahaha...

dumb and dumber signing out...

p/s creamedcookie if u were ever in kuching, ring me...wanna catch up on old times...(sounds like already OLD and want to mati nia...)

This song goes out to everybody that experienced extremely bad days, (including me)...
its a nice song... sooths the soul...

Daniel Powter
Bad Day
Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

p/s this song is featured in american idol...so it is GOOD...

Today or should i say YESTERDAY is one of the memorable day in my life....
Eventhough yesterday is a not so perfect day(read my previous blog then u'll understand what i mean)... I had managed to at least do something good....
Yes!! i have donated my first PINT of fresh BLOOD.... hopefully it will be used to save somebody's life....
'LIFE'--thats quite a something to brag about ^^
It was quite scary at first(first time ar)
then the person in charge started POKING me with a needle the size so big that it could be mistaken for an ELEPHANT TRANQUILIZER....kidding(but it was larger than an average needle) when the blood started oozing out....my arm was a lil bit numb...
whole body was weaken...(coz no breakfast) ;p
Eventhough i felt tired, it was a SATISFYING experience overall(having the opprtunity to help save someone's life, not the experience being poked by a GIANT needle) :D...

The details in my blood book...(a lil blur)..

What a day...
UNLUCKY MOMENT
If there was a time which i HOPED that the world would stop moving then the time is now...
Our tiny world is moving so FAST nowadays that things like a long good night sleep is only found in the story books of fond memories...
haih... (couldnt help pitying myself)...
i slept at 3am (do assignment a..), set the alarm clock to go off at 6am...
hit the bed and hoped to rest my brain...
I woke up, it was still dark so i decided to lay in bed...
then i saw myhandphone(crushed under the weight of my body)... the phone clock showed that the time was 8:15!!!WTF!!!(apparently the heavy curtain blocked most of the sunlight)...
and THE WORSE part is my math lecture STARTS at 8:00am....
at first wanted to resign to my fate and skip class... but then today got QUIZ!!!
the lecturer will surely MURDER me for missing her quiz!!!!
SO... i drove like a MAD MAN (or more likely a man being chase by the mad man)(or both together)... but FATE was not with me... TRAFFIC JAM pulak...
reached the class at 8:40 or so...

LUCKY MOMENT..
then LADY LUCK started siding me(guess she saw me swearing to many a time)...
the lecturer was in a very GOOD MOod... so she let me enter the class and then only the quiz begin.... I was feeling SO relieved that i forgot the answer to the simplest of all question...my bad...
in the MIDST of all the HUSTLE... i managed to DONATE MY 1ST PINT BLOOD oooo....
wanted to repay back LADY LUCK for saving my neck in class...
the rest of the day was all fine except that i was feeling a lil bit WEAK... 1st time donate blood wat...PLUS no breakfast...

p/s anybody got GOOD CHARM or TALISMAN?desperately need it....

i've just woke up(about an hour ago)... when to bed at 6 am.. watched BARCA defeat ARSENAL in the champions league final....
felt as if i could've slept for ages... but had to pull myself up cause got math lecture today...
i suck in math but always wondered why my result is quite good(for someone who never revised constantly).. just cant concentrate enough...
then i checked my e-mail(eyes still kinda groggy) and then WHOA...
YOU HAVE 40 NEW MAILs...wanted to delete the stuff without looking but then i decided to at least skim through the whole bundle...
guess what i've found>>>>THE SEX FAIRY.... kinda make my eyes lit up...
at first thought it was just some rubbish scam+porn...but then i realised that it was the GOODNESS(at last somebody got some sense to research on the plus side effect of SEX) of sex.
i've cut and pasted it right under this post..

now want go and have a bite before i go for lecture...
may post something tonight if free...

p/s 1)ARSENAL SUCKS...
2)now that we know the plus-side of sex... any girls available tonight? ehem... ;p

i've received a forwarded e-mail from my friends(unknown and known)... i thought it was a stupid joke BUT then as i read it.. it certainly did make sense.... i'll let u read it yourself and judge it... comments are welcomed...

1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.
2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.
3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.
4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!
5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.
6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!
7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.
8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.
9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.
10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.

p/s it says the original note came from a room somewhere in the basement of the Dwight House Pub(wherever that is)...

Have u EVER wondered where some of your stuff went to?
I've been searching for my scientific calculator since yesterday...
haih...
cant seem to understand where it have GONE....
searched the house, car, campus... and still no sign of it...
mabe, JUZ MABE it 'SPROUTED' tiny legs and ran away..
i admit it that i,ve not taken care of it properly..
BUT thats not a reason to desert me at this moment(1st math class test coming up)...AARGH...
TENSION...TENSION..@#@$@#$@$@
now some STUPID adware trying to destroy my laptop...
mabe its not that STUPID... i think its too CLEVER because i've installed 3 anti-adware program and STILL it keeps bugging me...
PATIENCE is clearly a VIRTUE...
i doubt if i still have any left...
the DAYS are going by sooooo FAST... i HATE college, who said it was so COOL? (just a few months ago, somebody was all HIGH on going to college-my inner self cant help critisizing me)
today class LASTED just 2 hours(and still i cant help but feel SLEEPY the whole lecture)...
AHHH....i'm so FED-UP(and thats hearing myself talking)
a pile of assignmet still waiting for me(and yet i'm here writing this stupid blog about nothing)...

p/s whoever got cure for amnesia or any quick remedy for
forgetfullness...give me a ring @ knock @ mail (whatever u
prefer)SERIOUS...

I happened to see tis particular blog in the friendster bulletin board..
it is funny and at the same time realistic...
check it out.

Who says MALAYSIAN English is teruk.? Just see
below - Ours is simple,short,concise, straight-to-point,
effective etc........

Found this in sumones blog. I think it summarizes quite well where I'm at, love-wise, at this point in my life.

1. Single, crushin', interested, or in a relationship?
Single...and mabe juz mabe got a crush on sum1(or izit more than 1).

2. Are you happy with where you are?
I'm striving to achieve a better life (maybe wit someone; who knows)

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
If i know she is the RIGHT one then i surely will fall VERY fast. The question is HOW to know that someone is the right ONE.

4. Have you ever had your heart broken?
NO. Mainly because i've yet to FALL for anyone. FEAR OF COMMITMENT(that sums it all).

5. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
NO! Its WRONG thats why it is called CHEATING.

6. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
If i really REALLY am in LOVE with that someone.(which i havent experienced yet)

7. Have you talked about marriage with another person?
Talked about it... SURE. (BUT we usually JOKE about it, not in a SERIOUS manner)

8. Do you want children?
SURE. Children is what makes a LIFE worth living. (i think so)

9. How many?
NO COMMENTS. (too young to consider about that kind of stuff)

10. Would you consider adoption?
YES. Maybe when my own KIDS(still a long way to go) are grown up(a much longer way to go).

11. If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be?
Be STRAIGHTFORWARD. or ANY way... as long as you let me know.

12. Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
Honestly, don't know.

13. Be honest, do you play the game?
What game???? hehehe

14. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
Yes, it DOES happen...

15. Are you romantic?
I can be... It all DEPENDS

16. Do you believe that you can change someone?
ONLY if i'm GOD(which i'm not).

17. If you could get married anywhere, money not an object, where would it be?Then i would marry ANYWHERE...

18. Sex buddies - good or bad?
It is ALL in the MIND.

19. Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
DEPENDS. If its a HE, then my honour is at stake. If its a SHE, gentleman behaviour goes a LONG way.

20. Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know it or not? If so who?
Even if I did - and I'm not saying I do, i'm not saying I dont - why the hell would I tell who it was?

21. Have you ever wished you could've had someone that you knew you could never have?
Yes.

22. Have you broken a heart?
NO. I think so.

23. What will happen if you come and find another person in bed with your partner?
The 'ANOTHER' person and my 'EX-PARTNER' will be....(lets leave it there)

24. Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
ONLY if my significant other(almost wished i HAD one) wants me to.

25. What would you say about your last ex?
I have no ex...

Final thought: I'm still SEARCHING for my LOVE.

At last... i have succeded creating my new blog...
my 2nd REAL blog really
a SOMEONE convinced me to replace my blogwit this blogspot
uh... still pondering on wat to write in my blog....
hope u like the OPENING poem...
b4 i start adding the TIT BITS of my RATHER BORING life...
let me giv a QUICK review bout MESELF
i'm not a BOY not yet A MAN...(MIDDLE MIDDLE la)
18 years and A LIL over a month while writing TIZ blog
MALAYSIAN citizen (A TEENY WEENY BIT proud of it)....
rather MISCHIEVEOUS... people say la, not me
prefer FRENDSHIP, still not into LOVE...
I have the 'general' fear of 'COMMITMENT'...
will continue to think as so... UNTIL sum1 (mabe its U...yes u... the 1 SCROLLING through my blog convince me OTHERWISE)
i guess tats ALL...the REST u will have to FIGURE out from my blog uPDATES or ASK me...
tata titi tutu...